@ nero100 I can not pretend that I know exactly where you are but I can certainly say the voice in your head that caused you to write your post is the wrong one to listen to.. Maybe you have not heard the voice inside you, that offers always true guidance and compassion, for some time.. It is there, I can assure you it is.. Find it and allow it to comfort you in these dark times and dismiss the chatter from the voice that tries to convince you that consciously ending your life is even a remote solution to your present circumstance.. Surround yourself with people who daily make a conscious effort to bring something to the table.. Make an effort yourself to do the same.. And at the end of the day consciously take stock of all that you have to be grateful for ..
Thanks guys for the warm words coming from you Well what to say today i´m much more positive than yesterday and i don´t have these thoughts right now. It´s not just my girlfriend that goes on my nerves,the whole environment around me is disgusting, to say it like that. Before 30-40 years one could say he had friends and family around him,but today you can´t even trust your closest family,not to mention friends that only pretend you be you friends Ok i´m not that close to suicide now,but to say that i have a special joy to live further,that i cannot say,it´s sad but true. I wasn´t out to drink a caffe with someone for almost a month now,not that i don´t want to,it´s just that here in this country people don´t know if they want to pee or poo at the same time. I know there are always positive things in life that keep you going on,but those positive things keep getting rarer and rarer from day to day. I´m just saying that my will to live like this isn´t that big any more and if i die today or maybe when my time has come in 20-30-40 years is more or less the same for me
Drinking coffee before leaving for car hunting, hopefully we will bring one home ps. bimmer stays home, just so you know
I think that´s normal in some way. Everybody had a few times in life such thoughts i think. Life as it is,it really is s**t (sorry for my bad language guys).I´m also not happy with my life as it is but what to do???? About girls,100% right there. I too have problems with my girlfriend,but that´s just the way they are.You love her she loves you that´s the most important i think. Girls are just unpredictable today,only thing i know about them 100% lol Many members already know that nero100 is my twin brother lol Mmmmm as i thought,to help you i have to be even more funny now (if it´s possible that is ) so you laugh more with me Tonight i will give you a BIG brother hug and kiss so you sleep better ahahaha Yenchen a BIG kiss for you too P.S. Guys did anybody except me notice that in every post of mine YEN is somewhere mentioned lol
Hi nero100, it's actually not easy to find the right words here in a virtual world (MDL forums). But you should know I am here for you. I don't want to add many words to what has been posted already, especially to redroad's post. It is right and everybody has experienced that in their own life, there are times which seem to appear to be dark. And to some it's the right way to meet people, to the others it's the right way to stay alone to sort the mind first. It will take time, but it will change to the better for sure. I can assure you this from my own experience. I don't know you personally, but I know everybody has cultivated actions, yes rituals or whatever you call it to recall happiness. This options seem not to exist when having a situation of a dark period in life, but they are always there. Just let they happen. If you want to see a particular friend / family member, do it. If you want to remain silent, do it. If you want to talk, do it. If you feel like to have a walk, do it. The situation will change, it always had and will again. The same power that lets your world now appear to be dark is the same that will change your situation to the better. You are the one that gives it its color. You can change it. But don't let yourself go, don't numb your mind, trust in the change, that already has started, even though you might think it has not happened much yet. And while doing that never forget there are people loving you, you are never alone. Yen.
LMAO @ dabits joke http://forums.mydigitallife.net/threads/19813-Jokes-Jokes-Jokes?p=592790&viewfull=1#post592790